Wired For Noise

I know I wrote a list of resolutions the other day, but since then I’ve been thinking about what I really want out of this year. Not just another crappy list of resolutions that will get broke half way through, but a real list of goals to strive for. And even if I don’t suceed it is the striving for that I’m looking at. I borrowed from PHATMommy’s post about the wheel of life and am breaking this down into 8 areas. Though I am changing them up a bit into areas that better reflect my life. Health, parenting, family & friends, career, finance, fun, environment, personal growth.

Health

• Start being more active. I spend too much time moping on my butt and not enough getting up. I know that once I’m moving I’ll feel better so I will work to make myself feel better.
• Better eating. I will at elast strive to eat better day by day. If I fail today that does not mean I can give up on tomorrow too. Each day is a new chance to eat a healthy diet.
• Meditation. Time spent calmly breathing and being still will lower my blood pressure and make me feel better.

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Everyone run over and give hugs to my girl Jo. She could use some right now. Prayers, thoughts, and spare parts welcome too.

I have a terrible time saying no to people. Especially face to face. In my head I may be saying how I feel, but on the outside I just smile and nod and keep quiet. My grandmother would be so proud.

So first thing this morning a woman comes to my house. Now I sort of know her. We met at the park, her son and mine played together and liked each other. We exchanged numbers planned to do a couple playdates. But those fell through. She did come over a few times last week when her gas was shut off in her house, once to take a hot shower. That’s fine, I’m more than willing to help. I know I’ve been there before. But still I wouldn’t call her a friend, truthfully she’s pretty darn annoying.

So first thing this morning she’s at my door. Now to normal people it was probably mid morning, to us it’s still early. A and I had only been up for about 30 minutes and E had just been dropped off minutes before from staying the night with his cousins. I was unpacking his bag when I heard a knock on the door and thought it was them, as a couple things had been left out of his bag. Instead there she was, bouncing in during the middle of unhappy time. We’re not morning people.

She was offering to buy me a new power cord for the laptop since mine is fried and we still haven’t gotten the replacement one yet. I was hesitant.

1. She’s made several comments about having no computer at her house and hinting at using mine. I’ve been able to push them aside because our PC is so old and near death. With the laptop working I wouldn’t have that excuse, and I’d feel obliged since she did buy the power cord.
2. I had a billion and twelve thing to do around the house day, a fact that I did mention several times. There was just no way I could fit a trip to another town in my schedule.
3. This is where I gave her the “Are you crazy?” face. I’m in a ratty old shirt and sweats, A isn’t even dressed yet, and E is laying on the floor having a fit because he’s over-tired, wants to be at his cousin’s house, and had 3 donuts for breakfast over there. Going out in public is the last thing on my mind.

I had thought that this would be the end of her visit. Really, it just wasn’t a good morning and anyone could clearly see it. Between E’s tantrum, A’s clinginess, and my to do list no one in their right mind should have wanted to stay.

But she did. For an hour! Just sitting in the chair smiling at me as I tried to hint as gently as I could that it was time for her to go. Seriously, you need to get. I cannot clean in front of company, I just can’t. I can barely clean in front of Dearest, and he lives here. I have this “must entertain guests” switch that is jammed into place. If I tried to do any cleaning I would probably die of embarrassment from being so rude. Again, grandma would be so proud to know her lessons were drilled in so completely.

Now it’s 11:30 and the house is still a mess. Any momentum I had going is gone now. I just look at the kitchen and walk away. Maybe I can tackle it later, or tomorrow. Right now I need to decompress.

There are so many amazing blogs out there, thousands of them, millions maybe that are worth checking out. And yet with so many it’s hard to get a chance to read them all. Christine wrote about a blog that I checked out and fell in love with. Then Jo shared some blogs that she loves and I teared up a little.I have over a hundred blogs in my feed reader. I know, it’s insane. I would probably have three times as many if I thought I could get through them all. As it is now it takes me about a week to cycle through once, but it’s worth it. Some blogs I read and never comment, some I comment when I can. Some make me laugh, cry, or inspire me to try something new. They are all my favorites.

In the spirit of sharing I decided to open up my feed reader and choose 5 blogs at random from it to share. Go check them out, you might find a new favorite of your own.

• Breast and Belly - This is the blog for all you birth junkies out there. She’s fun, funky, and knows her stuff.
• Veggie Way - This is one that makes me feel like unplugging the computer and giving up, because I could never be as cool as her. A vegan, peaceful living, crunchy mom that’s just way too smart.
• Imperfect Mommy - Sure she says she’s imperfect, but I think she’s pretty darn close. If you want to learn about eating healthier this is the blog you head to. Trust me.
• blue milk - If you looked up feminist motherhood this is the blog you would find. Or should be at least. I always feel a lot smarter after reading her.
• Tattoos & Drool - Every time I click over to read her I start itching for new ink. She’s an awesome mom, funny, and has purple hair.

Hmmm, maybe I need a new dye job with the new ink. There’s what you can get me for Christmas!