I\'m Summer, a mouthy, sarcastic bitch. I\'m passionate about natural birth, long term breastfeeding, and living naturally. I curse too much, love tattoos, and will some day be crushed to death by my book collection. I homeschool, dream of gardening, and swing to the left. 
I May Need Therapy For This
I don’t usually give people the benefit of the doubt. I’m a pessimist and from the South, which means I assume he worst because I know that any insult can be sugar coated. If it can be taken as an insult or a compliment I’m going to take it as the former. I don’t think I’m overly sensitive, just untrusting.
A few weeks ago a woman I was hanging out with made a comment about looking for someone the same religion as her. She said something about knowing that I don’t care for Christianity but to her if Jesus isn’t in it then it doesn’t work. Maybe that was a comment on the topic at hand, but in my rub-seeking mind it was a polite way of asking my pagan self and my atheist kids not to come back.
That’s just the way my brain works. I assume you don’t like me, that you’re trying to blow me off, that any attempt to include me is just you being polite.
OK, so maybe it goes past pessimism and straight into insecurity.
I’m shy. Painfully shy. I either hide in the shadows or try to overcompensate for it by being loud and obnoxious. I blush a lot, and stumble over my words. I have epic battles in my head trying to talk myself into walking through the door. I feel claustrophobic in crowds and have several little nervous tics that I can’t help doing. And yes, I assume the worst before we even say hello.
All this is to say that when we meet at BlogHer, be gentle. I’m not the most socially graceful, but I’ve got a cute baby. That’s gotta count for something.
You and your atheist kids are welcome to hang out with me and my atheist kids anytime!
Annie @ PhD in Parenting\´s last blog post..Hey there BlogLuxe VIP Blogger Panel
I think when we go outside the norm we have to put our guard up. A lot of people in this world think their path is the only way to righteousness, and you are crazy not to want it. They don’t realize it is not the words but the actions that mean more.
You will shine at Blogher- I am sad I won’t see you there:( That is the great thing about blogging you always find people just like you!
Susan\´s last blog post..Sketters
Wish I was going to BlogHer, cuz I know just how you feel. I’m the same way! Hate meeting new people, just because of the whole “meeting” part, once that’s over with I can feel a little more comfortable and things come a little easier for me. I hope you have a blast at BlogHer and meet some really great people who will enjoy your company for who you are! Cuz you’re pretty great!
Christine
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Christine\´s last blog post..Wicca Class 101 – Vegas
Smells like someone was trying to save you. Probably WANT to see you again … you would make such a great “project.”
Speaking of … I finally watched “Saved” this week. Have you seen it? Growing up in the Bible Belt – man, it’s SO FUNNY … ya’ know, cause it’s true.
Email me if you haven’t. I can bring it over and you can mail it back to Netflix for me.
Christine\´s last blog post..GREAT BIG GIANT NEWS!
I’m hunting you down at BlogHer to say hello (and see that sweet baby!) even though I may want to hide behind my laptop and Twitter the entire time.
Fairly Odd Mother\´s last blog post..It Could Have Been Worse: he could’ve said this to me.
You DO have a cute baby…
(But do I REALLY think your baby is cute? Or is “cute” code for something far more sinister?)
Just kidding! I am the same way. If a person’s words don’t immediately give away their “true” meaning, then I always analyze the conversation for tones, gestures, or facial expressions. It’s a habit that dies hard. I tend not to trust people either.
I’m like you: very shy, over compensate with obnoxiousness. Over the years I’ve taken that bawdy hat off and switched it to an observing one. When I slowed down, I noticed that everyone else was itching in their britches, too, and suddenly my playing field was leveled and I didn’t feel like quite that ass I believed I was. I also used to drink a lot. That could help, too.
Good luck and have fun at BlogHer. You’re gonna do great
Jessica – This is Worthwhile\´s last blog post..Grieving is like barfing: It hurts, but hopefully you’ll feel better
I’ve been there too! (I’m Unitarian living in the South)- a few times I actually made great friends with some Baptists, but then when they slip you a copy of LEFT BEHIND for Christmas, you get the point. Don’t let this lady phase you, there are other flks like you out there
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cute baby…
kat\´s last blog post..Retrospect, Monday, November 21, 2005